Sunday, July 4, 2010

rambling

Nothing ends the weekend like a great movie and an even greater book. The first DVD that I tried to watch was Disney’s Princess Diaries 2 but the DVD that I borrowed from the library was so damaged that all it read on my DVD player was “CD Error” That was partly failed on my part I should have seen the insane scratches on the back of the disc. The disc was so scratched you could almost see through to the other side. No matter, I took this time to watch the movie Avatar, which I had bought on DVD some time ago yet every time I went to watch it my FAIL sister and her FAIL husband would come one and make so much noise that even me, a Deaf person couldn’t ignore it. So I had to bid my time and hope that one day I could watch it. Like today, so I sat back on the couch (that I had longed to sit on since they moved in) and enjoyed all 160 minutes of the movie, no disc skipping, no loud movement sans my 7 year old cousin running around (her usual). Hell even for the first hour or two I broadcasted via justin.tv; I didn’t get as many viewers, my usual 2 or 3 but then randomly I got like 6 of 7 viewers but they weren’t signed in. just watching my channel. I hate lurkers it really does irritate me. Justin.tv should change that so the lurkers will still show up on your viewers list even if they aren’t really on your channel. Anyway, I watched the movie in its entirety and I loved every minute of it. Too bad it’s fiction, yet Pandora is not fiction, it’s a moon or a satellite on one of Saturn’s rings, it was discovered in the…you know what it doesn’t matter. Moving on! So after the movie I went back online and then my internet decided to fail, so what better way to pass the time until its back up by eating rainbow sherbet ice cream and reading the 5th book in the Artemis Fowl series since there is nothing on television to really entertain my thoughts at this time. Well…there is one show coming on at 11:00pm and then again at 11:30pm called Boondocks, I love the ethnic humor and I don’t find it racist one bit, you just have to be able to relate to it. That of which I can because of well where I live and grew up. Anyway, grandmother is bitching about the people that live across the street from us, they are crazy and we know this because they do stupid shit all the time but she still makes a point that they are a “threat” to her, when all they are doing is standing outside in the street talking to their friends minding their own business. I think my grandmother is the paranoid one (wish we could move, but we’ve been in this house so long that we can’t). and she’s just as stubborn as the next old person. I wish we didn’t have cameras watching their every move its so cliché.

After watching and reading a few lips these past few days I have decided to make my diary of a Deaf girl a little more unique, you know, make people read it, it won’t be gossip (I hate gossip it’s pointless). It’ll be something of my own language (no not sign language and it wont be a video diary either). If you haven’t figured it out yet, or I haven’t told you just yet. You may have already figured out that yes, the words of this diary are backward. See I got tired of my sister and her husband continuously looking over my shoulder as I type and chuckle as I write because I also got tired of trying to teach them sign language, and I refuse to read their mumbling lips a day longer. So I am typing this backwards to avert their eyes. They think its an entirely different language, the morons. 4th of July, the day of independence in the US (big whoop); I don’t see what all the celebrating is really about, the document wasn’t even approved from England till August 3, 1776. So that’s when I celebrate with a BBQ and music and partying, not July 4th.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

phenominal woman

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,They think I'm telling lies.
I say,It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.I
'm a womanPhenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

River

I'm falling down a river of memories
Floating among the fishes in the sea
Putting out the fire of my longing
Leaving me cold and within his reach
Pouring down the walls of self-consciousness

Evaporating al of my tears
Blessing me into his inhibition
Solidifying my emotins with his fears

I can't be like the water
Sensing through my fingers, he's understanding
Pulling through the emptiness of my confines
Sipping in the mainstream of his mind
My cup is overflowing with my emotions
If only I could get lost in his river
Surviving on the thought that I can't be with you

He causes my expression to remain taken
Rinsing all his water for his own
It is my imagination
He wont pour his soul to me for hours and hours
Not drawing out my nature with his hands
I wish I could be thirsty for his power

Itching to be worthy of his land

I wish I just like water

Thursday, June 10, 2010

first blog

So this is my first blog, i decided to start my blog since I have such nosy family members who enjoy snooping through my things and reading them as if they are a book. And as fun as that sounds they have no right to do it, its annoying. you will most likely hear more about my fail family members throughout my blog because everyday they continue to let everyone know just how much they fail at life. even right now as i type this they walk behind me trying to see what im typing. i should let you know now, im not much of a punctuation person, i like to be free in my writing.